At the moment, it seems to be the season of weddings, engagements, and relationships and as cheesy as it sounds - love. A lot of my friends either have a wedding around the corner, are engaged, newlyweds or are 'going steady' with their significant other. It's truly a beautiful time in life, but sometimes when you don't yet know what it feels like to be with somebody, it makes you wonder. You start to feel like every single human in your life has someone and suddenly you feel like you're spiralling into a black hole of eternal loneliness. Okay, that was a bit over-exaggerated and i don't really feel like that at all haha. Look, I'm only seventeen and i still have a lot to experience, learn and discover but this impulse to want to 'be loved' is really an inevitable part of life that comes with being human - don't you think? I've lost count of all the times that i have ranted to my best friends about 'having no one' and now I see that those petty thoughts are not that important. Yeah, it would be cool to just know sometimes, but I guess not knowing adds to this whole adventure known as love.
There's still quite a bit of 'not-knowing' for me but I'm learning to make the most of it. I know that I'll never get this time of single hood back so I might as well embrace it and besides, I guess it's not at all that lonely either. I have nothing to compare this time to anyway so in the meantime, this is a chance and a season to grow and live as much as you can. Don't just merely exist and hope that someday you'll be found by someone who will sweep you off your feet (or vice versa, if that's what you prefer). Make those #singlelyf jokes because you can. Keep that extra money inside your pocket for a new skateboard or something sick. Shove fries up your mouth like a walrus in the middle of Maccas because there's no one that you need to impress. Immerse yourself in the liberty of being temporarily alone! Just because there's no one right now, it doesn't mean that it will be that way for you, forever. I've come to realise that once you stop getting lost in those 'what if's' and 'if only' fantasies and start finding yourself in Someone so much more greater, you'll experience a love story that is so much better than anything you could ever comprehend.